notes lately

 " In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. 
  In all the world, there is no love for you like mine."  -Maya Angelou

"While I feel inspired by and sure of my lifestyle in the giant, oceanic sense, I indeed have waves of doubt and insecurity. It's remarkable that I can feel lost when moving in the right direction with a functional compass." -Nici Cline

"I wish people would stop judging each other and stop tying their self worth to a paycheck."

"Trust your gut, go with your instincts."

 "Put your ear down close to your soul and listen hard."- Anne Sexton

"One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple." - Jack Keronac

A small medley of quotes that have gathered in the pages of my notebook the past couple months. Randomly assorted throughout- layered in between other notes that I scribbled out in an effort to declutter my brain and make my handwriting better. 

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I wasn't quite sure how to start this, so I figured I'd just begin by saying the gray skies that have been hanging around here for the last few days have lifted and the light blue that now canopies above us is absolutely stunning. There is not a cloud in sight and the color contrasts so well with the white snow on the ground. I knew it would be like this. I saw the sunrise this morning and I thought to myself, today is going to be beautiful. 

I feel as if I have come out of a bit of a hibernation this week. As if recently I was huddled deep inside a winter flower that has now bloomed to see the blue skies too. My body unfolding with the petals and standing up strong in the bright light. I breath in the fresh, cold winter air and shake out my hair with a smile on my face. 

We have been waiting patiently to hear from jobs and schools. And finally we have heard a little bit. A decline from a school, which is fine. There are a couple more that may give my man a chance and we shall see probably in the next few weeks what they think. And if they say, "so sorry, but thank you for considering us as your next step in your career", we will smile at each other and drink a beer and go on a bike ride because after all we are not completely convinced we need them anyway.

And job inquiries and other meetings will be veering my family down south shortly too. Nothing may come of these. But they are possibilities. They are opportunities. They are rejuvenation. They are platforms that may brew about inspiration and guidance as we press on together. They are flowers opening up to light shining in.