defrosting

The official day to spring arrived with warmer winds and a blue sky full of those beautiful, puffy clouds. The ones that as a kid made my imagination wonder- the ones that as I get older still make my imagination wonder. I went on a nice long run through town that day. My ears heard my music loud and my funky leggings graced the main street proudly. I ran fast and confidently embracing the sweat that ran down the sides of my forehead and the warmth of the sun as it pierced through my t-shirt and touched my shoulder. It seemed with each step I took I could feel a rejuvenating effect occurring. It was as if the shift in seasons was giving me consent to recalculate. Tulips were even starting to bloom in the park.

More snow came the next day, though. I've been wondering about those tulips. May be they just withered down once the snow hit and will reshape when it warms up again. Like humans, those flowers must be resilient beings. I can't wait to go back and check on them.

 Sage makes me laugh. She is so precious to me. I know her little body is excited to get back outside so she can play and run fast. Running fast around our apartment is a favorite hobby of hers. Not only does she enjoy "running fast"- she also enjoys making random fake burp sounds. She'll make the sound- giggle- and then let us know she "burped". I think she may have picked this up from her new little friends.

Before I became a mother, I always thought I would enjoy the baby stage the most with my children. I was actually scared and turned off with the idea of being a mother to any kid above the age of two. I see now my whole thought process with that was all wrong. While I will always treasure my baby Sage- I absolutely love watching her grow. I love watching our own relationship grow.

I see more and more she is just like me. We are obviously on different paths, but the two of us together are figuring out this life thing. We are both eager to learn and full of wanderlust.

And besides her eyes still give me glimpses of the days when she was a baby. They're still blue and shaped like almonds and make me feel like I am the most beautiful person to her. Sometimes I feel a little sad when she looks at me like this because I sense she thinks I have all the answers, but I just don't.