Happy nine months

My baby girl is nine months today. I just can't believe how fast these nine months have passed by. 

I remember the first week after having Sage, I was having a hard time finding a way to merge my old life with this new life of mine. I wondered how I was going to still be free and creative in ways that made my heart happy, while at the same time living up to my new role of being a mama.  I was realizing that when I was pregnant I didn't fully grasp how HUGE of a responsibility having a baby was! I did a ton of reading on my changing body and how to deal with labor pains, but I never put the energy into reading what life was actually like with a newborn, or even how to breastfeed for that matter.

So when my sweet babe came into this world the demands of every two hour feedings, sleepless nights and sore nipples caught me a bit off guard. I was a happy new mama, but I was also scared and nervous. I remember vividly during those days wondering if I was ever going to get a full night of sleep again! Or if I was always going to wake up with a wet shirt from my milk leaking. 

But as the days passed by, I found my mama groove. 

The basic routines of changing and feeding became second nature.

And so did those early morning wake up calls.

I began to welcome these times and thought of all the other women in the world feeding their growing babes at that very same moment.

And as even more time passed, I saw that those sleepless nights do come to an end and so 

do those sore nipples.  What was left was this strong bond between my baby and I full of so much love and understanding. 

I got my little girls back. I will make sure she is fed whenever she is hungry, and cuddle with her whenever she needs to feel secure and loved.  She is mine and I am so thankful for this! 

And as she grows, I can't wait to show and teach her things that will help mold her little mind.  My fears in the beginning of losing that feeling of being a free and creative twenty something year old have completely gone away. If anything I feel a bigger urge to do what makes me happy in life. I feel a bigger urge inside me to take pictures,  and to travel, and to surround myself with pretty and inspiring things.

So, happy nine months to you, my sweet Sage. Watching you grow to this point has been so amazing, I can't wait to see what's next:)