Family love during the holidays!

This holiday season has been a very special and touching one for me, and I'm sure Kyle can say the same. It was so wonderful to hang out with family and hear what's new and exciting in their lives.  I specifically enjoyed talking to my cousins about motherhood. We bonded over the joys of breastfeeding and also the mishaps that occur with it  (mine would be milk spraying everywhere!) And of course,  we had to touch base on the hardships of night time feedings during the newborn stage and poopy diapers that require a trip to the bathtub. I was just really in love with the sincerity between us and our conversations. We just laid it all out on the table and laughed a lot!


Being with family really made me appreciate my own little family. I love that Sage and Kyle are my people---we are our own little tribe that gets to explore and find our own happiness together. A couple months ago, I overhead Jennifer Garner, an actress, explain on some celebrity news show that motherhood really enhances all your senses. I have found this to be true---my heart immediately expanded once my little baby was placed in my arms. It was so easy to love her, and so instant. I find that every time she does something new- like smile so big I think she is going to giggle, or try with all her power to roll her little body over from her back to her belly...i want to cry tears of joy and amazement! She is growing! And I am so thankful to have her in my life.

Besides all of that. I wondered what she will want for Christmas next year when she is older and a bit more aware. Will it be a stuff animal...a wooden rattle...a bouncy ball? I don't know! I hope, though, that she finds fun and amusement in items that aren't really toys at all--pots and pans....cardboard boxes...sticks and pine cones from the trees in the yard. You know, things that don't cost money! Ha--we shall see:)